Rubies, Roller Skates & Reinvention

August 22, 2021 / Tonya Melendez Gonzalez / Leave a comment

For me turning 50 is more than a number or my age it is about the lives I’ve lived, places I’ve been & friendships made. Rubys are my birthstone and best friend. It’s deep hypnotic glow is the color of the Cancer’s shell & Leo’s fire, my cusp personality, that inspires me to keep going even when I fail or fall, knowing forward is the direction I’m heading.

Like my rollerskates there can be grace when falling or gliding. Connecting to what brings me smiles and giggles (a.k.a. joy)reminds me to cultivate a beginners mind. This recent lesson not only showed up once I laced up my skates, but also in belly dance class too.

Where does the idea I’m supposed to know how, even though subconsciously I can sense it, come from?

When did being an adult mean I know everything?

It is a beginners mind that has been my guide when I decided to become an entrepreneur, quitting my safe job as a Librarian to pursue my inner callings.

I was called crazy and worse for betting on myself instead of getting a 9-to-5. I was deemed the black sheep by my family, shunned by society for sharing my gifts and demonized as a “black magic woman”.

When I began seeing clients, teaching yoga and waiting tables, dreaming one day to live near the beach & writing like living legend Alice Walker. When I discovered we had mutual friends and acquaintances I nearly fainted.

In college, I was gifted the opportunity to hear a talk and later share a smoke with Nikki Giovanni, not knowing the impact and influence she would have in my life as a writer and a black woman. Although my biggest dream is to be a New York Times best-selling author, it wasn’t until I was alcohol free that the writer within could emerge. I’ve had some amazing opportunities to share my writing in magazines all over the world yet it the Book that calls me.

I invite you on this sacred journey of my chariot year in the tarot growth cycle and what I’ve deemed my Ruby year as I write.

So far in the month I’ve been 50, authenticity, boundaries and creativity (my ABC’s) have been my guiding words anchoring me to the present and beginners mind.

What words have been anchors in your life recently?

Tune in. Turn on.

Ready-ing.

August 11, 2016August 11, 2016 / Tonya Melendez Gonzalez / Leave a comment

Oftentimes in life we prepare for things, a new job, school, or physical exercise as being prepared puts you in the mind set of accepting something new. How then does one prepare for life’s adventure’s, experiences, and situations. As a Spiritual Psychic-Medium, I understand the wanting to know and be prepared for what life will bring yet free will gives the opportunity for intuitive nudges to steer you in the direction of your dreams or a lesson. What I have come to understand is that everything does happen for a reason because God did not create mistakes, nothing is by chance in fact everything is guided to take you where you need to be based on your choice.

As the moon grows full and peaks tomorrow, allow yourself to see what choices you are making in effort to be “ready” for life’s next thing or are you riding the wave of listening and trusting your intuition. What are you focusing on right now? Are you preparing for the best for yourself or worrying with “how”. Life opens up when you do, so why not let it happen? Use this powerful Virgo Full moon to remind yourself that “fate follows the fearless” and choose to leap before you look. You never know what you are really ready for until its time for it to happen.

The need to know…

August 11, 2016August 11, 2016 / Tonya Melendez Gonzalez / 1 Comment

We all have something that we are afraid of, for me its deep water which comes from a remembrance of drowning in a past life. Yet that is not the kind of the something I am talking about now. Many of us have fears of not being able to do something, have something or be something because we cannot see beyond what others have told us is impossible, not worth it, or can have. Who are we NOT to have the life we dream of? Who says we cannot have, be, and do what we dream to do? It has taken years for me to fully understand this concept because my family, society, past experiences, and allowing other factors to determine my vision blocked this truth and my fear made it true in my mind. Yet I have seen the light and have allowed myself to listen with the wisdom of my heart instead of the confinement of my mind.

Every great athlete has always said they see themselves winning long before they ever take a shot. I am asking you to take a shot now- where is your focus, what is the shot you long to make? My mentor, teacher, and friend Rev. Michael Bernard Beckwith says “You can start with nothing, and out of nothing, and out of no way, a way will be made.” BELIEVE IT!!!

We can only have a dream manifest we when we ALLOW it beloved. Let go of the need to know the outcome, let go of the restricting past, and let go of what others think, you deserve your dreams that is why the Universe planted them within you. It is not by accident you want to paint, write, draw, sing, create, and SHARE this is what we they are within us to EXPRESS. Now it the the time, no more waiting. Believe in YOU and the universe will answer. Begin with “I AM” Claim your gifts, they are inside you waiting to serve, shine & share!

Live a miraculous life…

August 11, 2016August 11, 2016 / Tonya Melendez Gonzalez / Leave a comment

Destiny has been given much power over our lives because it gives us something to believe in. Fate shows what things could be possible when we allow our destiny to unfold. The temptation to resist, push, and fight what is brings more suffering than seeing what could be. When we align with the blessing of life itself our destiny is allowed to unfold organically & beautifully, and there is no temptation to go backwards because the blossoming is what your Soul has been longing to do, this is the TRUTH. Trust in the wisdom of your heart to put you right where you need to be at the the perfect time with all you need. Life is not meant to be struggle after struggle, it is meant to be blessing after blessing. Live a miraculous life by believing in the miraculous & YOURSELF. ❤

Into the next life..

August 11, 2016August 11, 2016 / Tonya Melendez Gonzalez / Leave a comment

Recently I read something recently that shifted me because it is what I have been experiencing. As a young woman, single mother & teacher, I longed to fit in and belong to society – its ways, its “laws” & conformity. The fear of not living up to the expectations, the failure others expected, and the dependency of my daughter on me kept me closed, afraid, and silent.

Today, I cannot recognize that person, she is within me and taught me many lessons yet I am the woman I dreamt of being. Life is to be lived through experience not only lessons, debts, and jobs, I learned a long time ago that there is no value in the experiences I’ve had that money can buy. My life is beyond material wealth, it is filled with laughter, grace, loss, freedom, independence, peace, gratitude, passion, sensuality, creativity, faith & LOTS of love – for myself, everyone & the world. The people, the culture, the food, the sights – ALL of it is within me now and goes with me where ever I am and this is something no one can take from me.

When it is my turn to go back into Spirit form, I will have these moments to take into the next life. Beloved, how are you living? What dreams are within you wanting freedom to express, where do YOU want to go?

I get it. Let’s chat, figure it out together & set you on your course of self discovery.